post 4

=(.... i miss your old self...

last time we could jus talk and talk for hours. nth could stop us.. but now... i always wait so long for your replies... and their always so short and brief... it really discourages me alot. and it has been happening for quite awhile already.

like now online. we always quarrel... i dunno wads wrong...

i still love you. i love you so damn badly and so much ='(. has your heart changed...

like now meeting each other is so difficult... i always have to initiate each time.. i thot all the past quarrels and fights. we've learnt something..

all those stuff you promised me.. you'll change some parts for you.. to be more sensitive to me...
you've forgotten..

now when we talk its like so guarded.. i cant even be myself to you anymore..

like now when i tell you i'm sad cos of you.. you're so guarded. you keep telling me where got. show you proof give examples... it really breaks my heart. it has come to a point where i dont wanna fight back anymore..

what happened fugu ='(..

like now.. after all that happened.. your so cold to me. its like if i dont talk to you or you didn't have me now. you'll be alright. your doing fine without me.

it really tugs at my heart strings...

knowing that you can do without me now.

i guess you've finally got independent of me. unlike last time.. we couldn't do without each other even for a day. you wont even tell me your sad =(.

you wont even say that all these has made you sad.. like your immune to me already.

i dont know what to do fugu....

has it really gotten this bad...

cos if you really dont need me anymore, tell me.

i'm going to give up on myself soon.. you know what i mean... but this time you'll never know.. it'll come quietly...