You know i've always been jealous. i'm always jealous jealous jealous of everything. And it ruined our relationship..
i guess i really ruined it this time.. i jus talked to a close friend. what she said really hit me hard.
i asked myself if we are fighting so much now. when we're in the same school. how bad is it when we graduate. probably different school. we want different things. wouldn't it be so much worst.
i ask myself isit worth it. to try again after this break up.
i began asking and really thinking hard...
and i've really been thinking and thinking ='(
and i read the best lines...
if we both wanted to be together,
what could possibly stop us?
charmaine told me.. the most important things in a relationship is faith trust and love.
i lacked faith and trust.. i really couldn't trust you.. it was so difficult because i was always in fear you would leave me.
it has becomed so frequent. i'm most afraid of a breakup. but because i was always afraid. i started to get cold. and i started doubting you.
i guess i really asked for it.
and its too late.. its no use if its only me who just want to be together with you anymore..
you know i always thought that i could make up the lack of love from you but loving you alot alot. which was how this relationship was working out. i thought you stayed in this relationship because i loved you alot alot.
but i was wrong. it was because you loved me too..
its ironic... i only find out now..
i cant face you now...
we used to like,
but now we love.
thank God i've found you,
my one true love.
ilu.
=( i wish
